Yay

Giant dandelion
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Christmas!

Drum roll please... and some seltzer.

Writing a post to publish after the big reveal...

I'm pregnant!

And oh my gosh. So sick.

Luckily, I haven't actually been throwing up but man... uhhhhh..

I never knew you could be so starving and so nauseous at the same time.

I guess I thought I'd be more excited, but honestly, I'm just so exhausted I don't even feel very much of anything. I usually can't nap. But I've been napping for like three hours in the afternoon and then sleeping a full eight plus at night. And still soooooo tired.

Definitely not experiencing the wonder of the miracle of life. More like the wonder of the tragedy of morning sickness. Its definitely the longest I've ever felt sick. I've led a sheltered healthy life apparently.

I keep asking Beefygeek "Are you sure I'm pregnant? I don't just have the flu?"

When I look down at my belly button and think... somewhere in there is a tiny little sesame seed sized body... and in the tiny sesame seed sized body is an eternal soul... I just think...

"How the heck is something so tiny making me SO SICK!!???"

Deep. So Deep. I know.

But seriously. Can I really be having a baby? Me? Wow.

wonderful. delightful. un-freaking-believable. :)

from glory

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to glory

Thankful

Originally uploaded by Velachery Balu

"...the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God. Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. For we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked. For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. Now the one who has fashioned us for this very purpose is God, who has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come."

2 Corinthians 4:16-5:5



I'm thankful that any year, every year, even if I have nothing, I have everything.

I have seen the white city

City night lights
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"Oh Los Angeles we leave you now
At the setting of your skies
As we leave the comfort of your ground
With your angels we will fly

Well you carried us in broken dreams
Like a mother does her sons
We were scattered 'cross your dirty streets
We were dying one by one

And you held us in your city lights
When our eyes had lost the stars
And we made our peace with lonely nights
And you healed our broken hearts

Well they say the Big One's gonna come
And you'll fall into the sea
We will know that then your work is done
And your angels will go free"

Peter Bradley Adams

Hauntingly beautiful song, go listen to it.

I never thought I'd love the city. But its pretty amazing to think about just how many people live and work and love and die within a few feet of each other.

And someday:

In the land of fadeless day,
Lies “the city foursquare,”
It shall never pass away,
And there is “no night there.”

God shall “wipe away all tears”
There’s no death, no pain, nor fears;
And they count not time by years,
For there is “no night there.”

All the gates shall never close,
To “the city foursquare,”
There life’s crystal river flows,
And there is “no night there.”

There they need no sunshine bright,
In “that city foursquare,”
For the Lamb is all the light,
And there is “no night there."

John R Clements